Have you ever been in that place where you know that the Lord is continuously reminding you that you need to trust him, but you think to yourself... eh are you sure? I feel like I have those more often than I should. I have these moments when I know the Lord calls to me and tells me that I don't need to worry about tomorrow (for it deals with itself), but I sit there thinking....BUT BUT BUT. I know deep down that He has my BEST interests in mind. I know that the Lord is GOOD. I know that he won't give me anything in addition to what I can handle... I still have a hard time though.
Sometimes I have those days when I think to myself I can't do this because what if??? The Lord has really been moving me lately to stop thinking along this path that I seem to place myself on. I have to start learning to trust that regardless of anything that has happened 10 years, 18 months, or 2 minutes ago the Lord will STILL use me. As I have said before I find it continuously amazing that the Lord can use my problems, mistakes, etc for his glory, but sometimes I get so worried about disappointing God that I either push any opportunity away or I just don't go for it entirely (both- very wrong attitudes).
I'm learning that it is far more important for me to trust. Trust that regardless if I like an outcome or not...the Lord has a reason for everything that happens in my life. Understanding to a new degree that FIRST and FOREMOST seeking the Lord's kingdom in everything I am ... highs or depths the Lord will be there... I have nothing to worry about. Even if its a difficult period I'm going through...who am I to worry with the Lord standing beside.
To everyone who is fighting this along beside me... Have courage! Learn to thank the Lord for EVERYTHING that comes your way (yes...the good AND the bad). Somehow it makes trusting a little bit easier.Realize that you need to go for things that will bring you joy... if it doesn't work out... GREAT! That only means that you then test your strength and bravery. You will only find how strong you are when you take a big blow and learn to stand back on two feet.
I am confident that one day I will learn. I am just as confident for you. Whatever it may be that you are worrying about.... upset about... guilty about.... anxious about..... lay it at the feet of our beloved. He will gladly take these from you and fill you then with nothing but the best of what He's got.
Thank you Father for giving the BEST you had for the WORST you could find. We love you!
Make mistakes, fall. fail. Take a hold of the hand of Jesus and watch him mold you into a new you!
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